Small sliver of life
Do you cater yourself and your truth for others? Do you lock yourself up in a little box to make them feel safe and content and at peace while on the inside you are screaming at yourself to get out? Out of the four walls of comfortability that they have placed around you. The room that now is much too small for you to fit within. Have you grown out of those spaces already? Why do you go back to them?
The discomfort of a loveless marriage, the resentment towards a sister or coworker or a friend, the distrust in yourself and sprit and the power of love, as if it is simply a four letter word. Have you allowed your truth to become so watered down for the safety of others, to not step on their toes or say the wrong thing? Have you blocked your most authentic light and trust expression to confine to the norms of what is tolerable for someone outside of yourself?
Why?
Why do you still hold onto these things when you know that you are so much more. And in you being and becoming this so much more you allow others the space to either love and meet you there or not, and simply fall away. We need not hold onto anyone who pulls us down from living authentically.
Voices of protest emerge. Think about the grounding, think about using what you learn for good, think think think think. Always think and keep certain walls up to make others feel better and learn the skills of conversation and pat yourself in the face when you’ve spoken too much. All these rules. Selfish and ego and mind and ground and body and don’t you know how to find the balance? Think about it some more.
Or don’t, and just drop onto the heart and feel.
Aren’t you afraid of a future employer seeing this? What about your future in laws? What will they think of you? Will you be embarrassed of what you create or will you look back when you’re 40 and feel deep shame? Is this all for external approval? Why not send it to just your close friends?
I pray that I look back and feel immense gratitude for the way I share myself openly with the world.
These are all the voices and the questions posed my way. In the face of a heart cracked open, the doubts around filter in and through. And I the judge, use the tools of discernment to sort and weed through those that aren’t relevant and allow those that are ready to grow to prosper. We use our mighty tools of strength, resiliency, and a sharp mind to be wielded with grace from the openness and truth of our hearts.
Naysayers and traffic jams are no match for the truth if your highest expression, and I promise you it will never stop nagging you until it comes into fruition. You have a path, you have a story that wants to be told. Find the courage to let yourself love it. Find the trust to let it unfold. There’s nothing that needs to be don’t, no strong great movements to be made. Simply allow, open up, let your own life take the center stage. You didn’t come here to play small, to hide and cower in a ball.
Release those emotions once and for all, though it’s not yours to carry. Use the anger as the fuel to drive you forward. Then let it go. Say no when you mean it and yes when you do, be kind, be loving, and trust what comes through.
I love you ❤️
Annika
