Pet the belly. Find your peace.

Do you worry about what others may think of you? What they may say? How they may react or respond to you simply being? To you expressing or sharing the truth of your heart or mind or soul? Do you dread the days they may look at you fully, see the complexity and fullness of your expression and writhe away or rejoice in your reflection? Do you feel unease in the depths of your soul because you do not know how it will be received by those that fill you life and your days, or those far far away yet nearby in energetic resonance? Is there a gap in your mind between the space of what’s safe to show and what’s dangerous to share, that invisible line of discomfort or discipline that you are not safe to step over? The one written in the sand that you have created in some far off space in your mind. A vow made as a child to not feel the fullness of your heart around those that stand in the kitchen, or to not tell the whole truth for it may disrupt the current of a friendship. Though the truth burns and bubbles to be expressed. “I’m sorry that I threw it away, I’m sorry that I ran around mad for some days, I’m sorry if that divides us now”

Do you hold back on what you feel? In order to make others feel safe and secure within their own selves, yet you do not truly know what it is that they may be experiencing in the inside. Are you projecting a voice and a face onto the formless minds and bodies of thought forms and projections, always trying to get it right, to be perfect, to not be too much, to be just right, just that perfect sliver of what is necessary at each moment? Do you hide what you wish to say in order to make others feel better, though what is essential for real truth and deep intimacy is unwavering truth and raw vulnerability. How can we really form these connections, these deep bonds and solid roots of all is held and brought up to the surface all the time. Afraid to step in, to dive a little bit deeper, to allow our hearts to build stronger bridges and connections and pathways. The place where real and true and rooted foundations are born, are become. This is the space within, the place within that we do it. Find the vulnerability within, the rawness, the realness, the space that one wrong blow could threaten the whole system, an exposed and beating heart, and let it rise up up up and out of you surrounded by bright golden white love and light. Allow these deep, deep, ancestral, primordial, archaic and mystical aspects if you to be seen. Illuminate them with the light of your consciousness the light of your true being. The wounds from when we were in different continents. Do you feel safe in your body and your being now? Do you ever feel safe? When you are alone, do you feel safe to let go and relax and really truly breathe? How can you gift this to yourself? What is it that you may need for this? To allow your heart to open up and expand in its fullness.

To let your emotions be seen, to let our hearts be exposed in full. I love you and I want you to know. I love you and I want you to know, I love you and I was afraid of you but I want you to know. How could I be in a space so unconditional? The safe space of divine love. How could I be in a space so uncontrolled, where I do not know the up form the down. The womb of creation, in a cave with no way out. Will I know your intentions when they the day is done? Or will I be lost traveling through time and space. Aimless, blind, the heart hurtles me forward as my body and my being convulses into a tight sphere. Trying so badly to hold on as I surrender and trust where I am being guided. The stars and the shapeless tunnels of the portal. A black hole, it stretches me out. I walk through the door, the one my heart has already unlocked, that already has the dream created in the other side, it is open and it is free and I am here for it.

Are you? Are you here for it? Are you here for the truth of your heart? I ask the voices within that feel safest in the confined state, the curled and crumpled up ball, I ask if you are ready to receive. Revive the fullness of who you are. Is that a trigger to you? What to do we do? Do I simply write the words of your mind and help us find the solution.

In solitude, the solace alone, what is it that you knew? What is it that you are ready to know? That you have always known. How you hold yourself, how do you hold yourself down, here in space, here in this moment, in this experience. How can you hold yourself and relax your inner being. I see you, I know you, I love you. You need not carry up and out the energies of those around. You can if you like, for we are all connected. Suffering in silence the truth wishes to be seen. I see you, I know you and I love you. I pray you feel no fear, instead find solace and understanding in the blanket of love that we all exist within.

How can we hold on, how can we let go, before we are ready to? What are we supposed to dob when all around falls around and crumbles, when nothing is certain, what can we do. What can we share. A breathe? I pause.

you are ready to feel it all. You are ready for the fall and for the great rise. The love that expands you beyond what you may know.

Settle. Pet the belly, and let it all go.

There’s nothing you need to be afraid of.

The death is a portal into a world beyond what you may have ever known. We need not learn from punishment anymore. Only through reward and kindness and care. We need not suffer or live within limitations. Hold ourselves back by the collar. We are not wild animals, we are wise and ancient beings. We are divinity in human form and it’s time now to remember.

Are you ready to let yourself off the leash? Create, play, and trust, know that you always come back to what feels like home and safety and comfort. You will be held, you will be loved, you will be seen. You are. We are ready to hear your voice, we want to hear what you have to say, we want to hear what you heave to create, the truest from and expressions of you. Be, create, and play.

You need not hold into the emotions and the memories and feelings of others, you need not be confined to a state. You are free. Limitlessly, wild, fierce being of love. Be you, and never back down.

you know, you know. You are love and you are safe to be you.

I love you

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