What do you crave and why?

Do you fear being seen? Or do you enjoy?

What does it make you feel to have eyes on you, from those around, from those within. You know you have something magical to share. What holds you back from sharing it? Is it the idea that others may judge and try and take it from you? Is this me projecting all of my own internal questions onto you? Like shouting at a white wall that I have created. In the corner of the party while everybody else is celebrating. I yell and scream out at the top of my lungs into the corner questions about being seen, yet no one is there and I am talking to the void or a different realm and the screams are internal and no external sound is actually expressed. I come back into the room which everyone else is in, they all dance on the surface, i’m on my way there, for now, my face is now covered in ash as if a small explosion just took place and my face received the smoke.

What would it be like to share your experience with the world. Do you wanna be seen? Do you wanna be known? Is this what we’re all doing when and as we search for connection? The idea and yearning for understanding, to find a mutual agreement in our collective experience. First we must pull back the veils and ideas of separateness and the fears of truly sharing what’s going on on the inside. Be vulnerable, express the taboo, what do you think about? It’s like sharing secrets at a slumber party and then flying off into different dimensions. We break the silence at 3am, when the time is thin and the space between worlds can be accessed with ease. This is when we truly drop in and open up. The one who understands what you mean when you channel your inner pleadian on the dance floor. Do you understand what I say?

Earlier, I was writing, writing about how I felt and what I saw. There was a large and heavy energy around my mid section. My energy was white and light blue yet this energy was dense and darker and like a swap green color. It felt like a little kinda vest around me that I was wearing. It for a time felt like it penetrated my whole consciousness but I had multiple moments of pulling my head out of it to express and ask for guidance and support and direction on where to go. To find the right teachers and messages and guidance for me to activate my soul remembering. The 3D world, the world we grew up in, what surrounds us outside of our homes, for the most part, is full of noise and energy that can easily lull you back to sleep if you aren’t staying conscious of your own energy and how you show up. It’s not a punishment, it’s just an opportunity to choose a new perspective, a fresh face and a new idea of how we wish to view the world. It’s a great gift to see and feel what we feel and then being in, allowing our bodies to experience it, fully, allowing it to dissipate and regulate and then deciding, ‘hey ok this is actually okay. I am safe and now I get to choose what I do’ this gives us a moment, and a chance to pause. To see what really truly is here and then to decide what it is that we get to do.

There’s truly so much noise out there, stimulation, and ideas. And in that, it becomes a reflection of the internal space and dialogue if we aren’t tending to ourselves and caring for our energetic hygiene. Cleansing, protecting, and doing regular energy work (or play). Whatever feels most in alignment with us and our true systems. Meditations, guided or not to cleanse and clear our energy and stagnancy. Journaling, to release whatever is ready to go, and to remember who you are through solitude and words and whatever else comes through, sensations, emotions, past lives, activations, awakenings, etc. Showers in pure white light through the water or simply intention. Dance and moving our bodies in ways that feel like real and true release, and then calling in the energy we wish to cultivate and live within. What parts of you do you want to embody. Yoga or yoga nidra. Laying on the earth, walks. Just conscious living. Whatever you need, ask your guides and angels to guide you to all the proper resources that are here to support you, help you, activate you, cleanse you, protect you, help you to remember, and fill you with the most joy.

“Thank you angels for guiding me to the tools and resources that are in my highest alignment and help me to use them with joy, grace, and ease”

“Thank you angels for helping me to love myself in all of my stages and phases”

“Thank you angels for guiding my thoughts, actions, sensations, and energy and showing me clearly what I should do”

“Thank you angels for helping me to remember my multidimensional gifts, abilities and capabilities and guide to use them freely and with love”

“Thank you angels for helping me to forgive with ease”

“Thank you angels for helping to make my life so joyful, and free. Thank you for helping me to listen to all of your messages with open ears and a deep trusting heart”

“Thank you angels for helping me to trust in the ever unfolding path as I create my way through resonance and frequency”

“Thank you angels for helping me to love all that I see”

“Thank you angels for helping me to trust myself and choose me unconditionally”

“Thank you angels for supporting me and helping me in all of my decisions, big and small.”

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The energy that I previously mentioned, has since transformed. Through some dance, some meditation, some activating and some creating. Now I see much more clearly and feel as though I understand more. There still is some remnants of another. A force that tries to pull and push me in this way and that yet the force of my true self remains bright and clear. The force of the true self and light within; we are here to unite, to choose unity over division. There is no need to struggle or to fight. To get angry or to fright, it’s here to teach you that you’ll be alright. It’s just a sensation. An energy, and embrace. You can take things slowly, take them at your own perfect pace. It’s okay, we’re relearning, remembering, that this isn’t a race. Just take it one step at a time and you’ll understand.

It’s all okay, there’s no longer a struggle anymore. There’s no longer a fight or a war or a conflict. It can all be let go of now. We listen deeply, what does it have to say to you?

It’s the voices of all the others outside. The ones that scream and shout their anger out out out it’s so loud how they shout. What can we do for them?

Open up into a space of love. Hold ourselves in the love that we are, invite them to open up in this space as well if they feel ready, and just tune inward. There’s no need to be afraid of them or fight with them or with any other. We just open up into the space of love and we let the rest of it all dissolve.

How do we know if we’re making the right choices? You’ll see, because it will feel easy. It will feel fun, it will feel exciting and igniting. It will feel like love. To work together with your other, with your one. With your true self, integrated, the balanced polarities of your being.

No one more important than the other. A balance and peaceful team, union. This is what creates the peace and the openness, it comes from the contrast and the seemingly opposing forces that came together with such might and strength and ferocity. Hitting head to head and forehead to forehead and then coming tighter and uniting and holding the other. We press our foreheads into the other because through it we truly understand. And then we allow the waves to be the neutral spaces that moves us, whether that be physical waves of the sea or energetic waves of the cosmos off the individual waves of a space. We allow the tension to create a union, an opposition into an opportunity to work greater as one. We come together and we unite, we combine forces. I understand you and you understand me. Together we make a powerful team to come forth and awaken to the mystery.

I see you in you and I see me in me. I see me in you and you in me. It’s all a mirror how we do and how we sway. Embrace the contrasts and embrace your day.

Let’s play my dear.

I love you, thank you for listening, thank you for choosing you. Thank you for being here.