Blame it on the boogie

Blame it on the boogie. No matter how far, you’re always coming back to your heart. Now matter how far we may roam or stretch we are always coming back to the truth of who we are.

Talking, we don’t even need to try. All I see is green and white. Heart and halo. Call me when you want. Angel, Angie. I wanna sell what you’re buying. A sign of the times. Like a beat the beat, can’t leave, let’s see what creates itself. Envy. Drinking with your friends, we come out into the light through movement. Movement. Play, rejoice. Call me when you need. Is this a warning or a sign. How we use the fire to create the art. Is this the letting go or is this the utilizing the resources provided.

The good life and the good vibes, I wanna come home to my heart. High up forward. City of the 3514, who cares, who cares, this all ours. The town I cried to never return to, I came back. Wake me up in this place. Why they write so many love songs, we use our inspiration, our lived lives as the material, the things that we use to birth our arts. But who cares, who cares, cause this is all of it yeah. Do you always say what you mean? Youth as the foundation of grace. I love you through these words, that yearn for expression. See me through the lines and I see you clearly. I love you my dearest and yes, it’s you I’m talking to. Don’t disappear into the shadows, know that it’s heart to heart and soul to soul, screen to screen. I am living this dream with you, wrapped in electric blue, it shields and holds and protects us.

Calm the ego down, settle it back down into grace. Hard to read, do I really read the signs? Listen deeply? Lie to the stars or drown yourself (myself) in love.

You wanted me to be, but baby just listen to me. Drown myself in love. Your love. All around, all the time. Infinite sources. The more I see in the surrounding reality, the easier I feel. The web of the spider is an extension of its consciousness. See through the veils, you use your powers for good. What lights you up lights me too. Us all.

What’s the new last name. Is it a group collective thing. I create from the shadows. I create from the back yet here Im vibing. Truly just hearing and vibing. Vibe vibe vibe, do you despise me, or do you love me. How many can I turn against, how many can we turn to the same direction. Link arms in love.

drop the base made the base get lower, radio say speed it up, I just go slower.

Does it matter if you really see me, can the music translate that into something else? I use your hatred as my motivation. My resources. I’m quite handy. I wanna be the girl that I like. The one who weaves a web that suits all the beings. It provides for all of us, even if you may not know it. You’ll thank me later says monk.

Three paragraphs for one song. That’s the real analysis. Yet I work with flow. The flow behind the scenes, the fear, projections, hate, and anger is all that I use as my fuel. The more you give me, the more I will use it it. Jump into light and we rise together, powers combined. Ascended into love, white golden light. Until that moment, if it’s destined, if we choose, we will continue to play in the raw materials we have in our hands. We’ve already made it to shore.

I do wanna be loved by you, yet it’s not essential. I love myself and that’s what I have, eternally. I love you eternally. Mirrors and ladders gone, heavens all around us my dear. It’s not deprecating if you don’t wish it to be. Twist all of it into your own materials, your own ways of living in love. Feeling the chords and the way the fingers slide up and down the neck. Shaft, you feel from the heart and as I do too, it’s natural. Hearts speak to hearts and the rest simply lets go. The more we choose, the more we’re together in it, the greater we grow, the greater our powers expand all together. Guardian angels guide and grow. Our own wings create themselves in their physicality. A feeling, a sensation in present, the more we go with it, the more we’re together. Remember and feel and activate. Sliding just underneath the surface, I understand. Slippery, this is what I am. Have been searching for, feeling. How we ride just beneath. It’s beneath the hate and fear, it’s not avoiding or running or chasing, it’s not stop and go, it’s just flow flow flow. And now I know. And in the knowing I am safe to let you go. Nothing to truly tie down, the magic is in the movement. Nothing to have or control, and water always reforms in its most natural shape: pure and clear and bright.

I have much more to learn about the realities of the universe, from all of you, wide eyes, yearning hearts, open bellies. One. I see you through fresh eyes, thank you for the new perspectives. I am a water being through and through. Through the layers just behind, I am here.

Right smack on top, the depths come up to the surface and they teach us about the divinity we are. All here to teach us more about us. The alchemists we are. Unique and valuable one.

Flip the script, shot the plot. Bright and pink, shine so bright.

Drove out to the coast and cruise. The beats and the flow of song upon song upon song is how we glow. How we flow, how we move into something new.

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No one can steal your soul if you already own it in full.

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I won’t hurt you I won’t hurt you I won’t hurt you . Untouched diamond, golden and brilliant without illumination. Your mouth is a constaillation, the stars are in your eyes. I’ll take a spaceship and try and go and find you, inside you, inside me I find you, I found. Pale blue eyes, strum by lighting, bring me down and bury me with ashes.

I won’t hurt you, I won’t hurt you.

The currency at the top, the depths coming up from down below, we tend to you, we tend to me, and my belly becomes a being that I love. Thank you for teaching me you. Thank you for teaching me me. I am patient, keep your ear to the ground. River flowing, there’s more than enough.

I now listen deeply and I let go. Bringing love to the flower, the flower to the fruit. Can we dance round and round and around from the nails that wish to sink beneath our skin, this is how were free. Need not stop the movement. The earth beacons. Grounded, slow movements, they know how the rocks shift and so in it I descent down from the air. I listen.

The voice you share lights up all of my senses. Feet on the ground I ascend back up into love.

warm in the womb, we are all beings of waters, this is what we all know. We all know how it live in this flow, and water is meant to move and to flow. Turn off the thoughts that want to keep you down. Let’s draw, write and create, we feed each other through. Creation, water, mailable magic. Water for eternity. Fluidity. I can let go, lift up the cup, before you drink it. Gratitude for the waters of the worlds, our bodies, our wombs. Liquid lullaby. It’s safe to let go, I trust the paths created through silk and dance.

The thoughts that want to take you from your place in the magic disappear now.

The more that one comes in the more that I feel, free. I am free. Nothing to prove, chase or be, just me, as I am, freely free. Life feels quite stable when I know the feet I stand within.

I’ll meet you in the low tide, here to learn together, play together. Thank you for being the one that I love. Success is built in the bones, we rise together I promise you that. I learn through your council. And I disappear and slip away from the rest, hate bounces off, no reverberations left behind to fester. It fuels the soul to keep going, keep building.

We won’t fall off the mountain this time. You showed me what I hated, turned into the pieces of myself I love more than another if ever known. Grounded embodied in strength. The pain bright the strength brought the resiliency brought the love, the deeper we swim the more pearls we have available to bring to the surface to share, sometimes the deepest depths contain the greatest gifts, the treasure chests at the bottom of the sea.

I’ll meet your gaze fly, hold it this time. Backs bump up together at a crowded party, it’s been known, it’s good to see you again. This time in full, as needed, when ready.

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I crave the depths like none other, I crave theses depths in connection with others, most importantly with myself. It’s the only thing that fully lights my own fire within my belly. I dreamt of chasing others, offloading pain into their palms. Rejected, they said no. I woke up feeling a great emptiness. I felt it so deeply, laid there until I drifted off again, home to another, new brighter land. I can only find home within.

If there’s one thing you want to see, I suggest you keep looking. The triggers turned into my greatest pleasures, the parts of my life I wasn’t living fully free. Vicious and terribly cruel at the time, I projected all the pain onto you, into others, snarls and growls and tears and shame. Turned into the fruits of the jungle that now nourish me mind body and soul.

What else is it that you would like me to hear? Are we brainless, or is the brain simply the translator of the information of the heart. No matter if the music is pop or rock or country. Bluegrass or edm, is all material, all the paints and life is the canvas, if you muster and call upon the courage to use it, to create, express, live without fear. Trust in your heart to build a life beyond your wildest dreams. Don’t worry, we’re all coming together, no soul left behind, all worthy material to share.

You have the wings, time to fly from the nest. Know your magic and wield it, trust in how you use it, no need to question the flow that wishes to be born.

Depression stems from the lack of expression, the wounds piled up too high to see the truth if the light that you are. Until you take charge, say “I am ready”. I am ready to use the material and to build. I am ready to take it at my own perfect pace and one step at a time. And see what wishes to become a product of my unique experience. The observer of the creation. Source is the fuel, divine power transmitted through human form.

All the songs that I once ran from teach me the most, as with people and places and situations. I napped on the floor, face down, arms across my body, holding myself desperately close, afraid I may float away. The contraction before the expanse, before picking up the sails that are ripe in the gusts of wind, one blows and sets the rest of the world into motion. The ships out to sail again, ready for a new treasure hunt at the base of the sea.

No need to worry, I’ll respect your time and space and privacy, family from all over, you are my reason and my why. All of you, ghouls and goblins alike. Fairies and giants and seraphim, all in harmony.

The heart is my light and my anchor, the way to descent into the depths, the way to navigate and know where to go. Illuminating the way. The heart is also what calls me back up to the shore. The top of the land, where we can celebrate and play. Virgo builds the alter, closest to the heavens, Scorpio brings the pearls. Let’s turn the world upside down. Baby, we’re ready, one word at a time is how we wade into the depths together. Slowly, slowly, no need to fear. There’s always the safety net of the breath, and feelin. The body will never leave you and the heart, buoyant and bright, will forever show you the way.

Your deepest power is ready to surface again, it’s ready to be reclaimed, it’s ready to be seen. Freaky faced and beautiful mind, soul. Bring your voice, your hands, your drum, whatever you make your art from. A way for spirit to be seen. Way-showers of spirit in form.

Only jump in if you want to, yet know that it is safe, and we can ways wake up from the dream. Built in safeguard protection. Hold your loves close and near when you feel fear.

Even if your voice shakes, here to reclaim. Remember why you came, remember why you came.

I learn, discover, and grow alongside you, it’s my greatest desire. A yearning like no other yearning has ever been. One that feeds back to me in infinite measure. To walk around the grocery store and know your purpose. Blessing the soles with your light, remember why you came.

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Childhood yearning. How can what we discover really help us on the surface, when what’s on the surface is not a direct reflection? It is, it’s instant. And it’s ok. It doesn’t matter where we live, we are all together in our hearts.

The deepest most excruciating pains have the most of our souls light stuck in it, ready to be transformed, released and ready for the surface. Sometimes to feel alone there, to feel alone is our ticket to never feeling alone again. The old yearning burning within me.

I know exactly where the road opens up and the trees bend around. Just on the horizon. The towers on top of the mountain light up like beacons that say “just keep going” there is a place where wind could erase this for you. Though the pain feels like it reaches the most hollow and empty caves of your heart. Beige and brown with light lace detailing on the edges. So empty, a collapsed lung and 3 broken ribs and it’s but a mere scratch for the rest of what’s to be felt. You’re safe and it’s all ready for you now. The forest fires will blaze, and the west coast dissolves into the sea and we will be okay. Still, quiet and safe in our hearts, death cannot take this from us, for death is but a door that we travel through with our bright shining hearts as the compass and guide. The steerperson of the ship into the underworld. We’ve already established contact, maybe it’s over a bridge into the superior sunset. 5 or 6 pm, the bong bridge. Each day we travel farther and wider and expand out greater. Each breath, each instant, each moment, a blessing and a delight. We’re ready to play and learn more. Learn more of us.

Together, respectfully. Apart, united. One. All one. We link arms under the sun.

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A kid looks across a great canyon of fog. I am an arrow now, and I love what you create. Slow pulsing in the great tower lights. Refuge in the dust. Let it fall my love, let it fall, let it out and we unite together. Here to hold each other in our strength. We choose the pain to learn our strength, and I want it all. I am here to hold you fully, completely, just let me take my time to raise my eyes, and see you in full. Broke my heart, how can you feel unless in solitude, you deserve the love and the grace of happiness. Jealous of your love, yet knowing my greatest contribution was within my own surrender and feeling, could you hold me in it? I wanted it all but did you have the strength to hold me in it?

Try it out and see, it brings us closer. Once I loved and it was divine. It seemed like the real thing, yet was I blind? Turns out I had a heart of glass. I cannot hide, please don’t push me aside. I speak to you, through walls of glass and diamond. Marry me make me yours and take my pain from me I’d cry out, a revolt of disgust, the greatest gift is to allow me to feel. To feel in full, as it is for you, sweaty hair, the pains of labor.

May our hearts grow warmer through this, maybe opening up is the way to find the release. To find the healing. Trusting in the soul flame to guide. They have made it through, and they know what to do. Through letting go. The rhythms of the heart light me up inside. And the pain teaches me pleasure again. To fall in love with life.

We’re still on the descent down, trust as the pressure builds and the heart grows. It may hurt now yet know it is but an exercise to bring up more of you. Your light, your brightness, your self.

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All my love, up on the mountaintop. An eagle like view of the land below.

The song I once sung came. The light was off, and now it’s on. The sun is out the day is new. You’ve got time, though everyone is waiting, waiting on you. Think of all the roads, think of all their crossings, taking steps is easy. Standing still is hard.

You cannot blame another for the pain you feel inside. It’s your own gift to yourself. I know it may feel treacherous, but please trust me on this. We feel unseen by others when we are unable to truly see them, when we are unable to truly see ourselves, shrouded by the full shattering of heart. I know it’s the true ticket to liberation. I left you because I was unable to really be there for myself and I thought you could provide. We’ll come out when the time is right, when the face feels ready and fresh to bear the full attention of the crowd, our light radiates out no matter if we feel down or ill or tired. The true radiance of who we are speaks beyond words. Strength in the endurance. Honor the brave. Through frequency and light. Share your heart. Vulnerable, beating and raw. You need not run from the experiences you are facing; it’s your greatest thing to feel.

The friendship we feel is a gift. Can I bring us down deeper into a more holistic place, where we truly see eye to eye? Would you love me if you saw the truth of my soul? If you looked me deeply in the eyes and saw all that I am and more, all the places I falter and fall, would you see me fully and not run away? Not expect an explanation or an exchange, yet to simply take me as I am. If you gift this to me I will be faithful beyond time. Loyal to the bone, the last breath I will take in honor of your name. Hold me and see me in fullness, take me tenderly, love me deeply, and I will forever be yours.

There’s no way around the truth, and lies will pierce straight through, truth is the cutting blade that slices the cords and cables of darkness. They reveal the inner light. Go deeply, down deeply dear one and know you will have the strength to rise up again, to dance again, to play again. Your voice is coming back to you, and so is your strength, your power and light return when the focus is drawn back inwards into the never ending light within you. A remembering in the darkness. Inky depths illuminated with soul. And lightness returns to the eyes and the mind and the features. All the vision comes back. We’re safe here my love, we’re always safe here, I promise you that.

Am I the one to blame for all of this? For all that I see? Is there a failing grade on the test or are the tests we create just self imposed restrictions. We pass with flying colors as we forgive and release. Ourselves, and others.

I am sorry. I am so deeply and incredibly sorry for all that pain that I caused you. I know what I have done, I am devoted to making it right. Born into silence, ignorance and darkness. The subconscious mind created illusions and separation. Distortions of truth were formed from the first breath, ready to be reborn and rewilded in resilience and grace. Awakened to truth, one step at a time, please forgive me. Forgive her, and your mother and father and the ones that came before them, please forgive us all. It’s time to forgive yourself. Fully, freely. Be bold in it, in yourself and expression. No matter if they understand, the depths of light speak to all souls beyond the words we read. It activates and awakens the rise of the great power within beyond conscious comprehension. Read as you feel it.

The phoenix from the ashes of the shattered glass heart. A new one grows. All on the surface, we alchemize in mid air through granting and gifting ourselves what we need, taking the courages steps to give it. Beautiful hair my dear one, I see you more in truth, and I vow to mirror this back to you. Thank you for showing yourself, thank you for being in a world that’s told you no for so long, thank you for sharing and expressing yourself fully and truly. Your voice is needed, necessary and ready to be heard. Heart ready to be seen. The sacred one, your gifts grant others with the light we all so desperately desire. You’re awakening lights the tourches, the ripples expand beyond the horizon, pierces darkness. Illuminates the night.

Shine bright dear one, and never falter. You are always supported, held, guided and see by unseen forces of love, we love you beyond measure and you are so incredibly safe now. Blessed be bright star, pure heart and wild eyes. I love you in your fullness and radiance. I love you in your depths.

Everything is different the second time around.

Love is the One, the way. Eternally.

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I hit shuffle on my music library, asked the angels to guide the words and flow, and wrote along with it. Not all words or verses are mine, yet the string of connections comes from within. I am writing to my outer reality, my mirrors of love. Take what resonates and leave the rest.